Faye (0leander_tea) wrote in quod_medestruit,
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Wtf???

Okay, so what the fuck is up with my body, seriously!?!

First I succumb to the "munchies" and eat a bunch of fucking chips.

And promptly after, lose three pounds.

And then I fast for an entire fucking day and a half and lose NOTHING.

And today I end up breaking my fast with

a salad and a bowl of chicken noodle soup,

then later completely losing all control and eat:

1 Butterfinger Crunch bar [250cal, 13g fat]
1 packet of Wheat and Cheddar snack crackers [190cal, 9g fat]
AND 1 little bag of Honey Wheat Braided Twist Pretzels [220cal, 2 g fat]

!!!

I still feel so fucking disgusted. I can't purge. My dorm has a community bathroom. My whole floor shares it.

So I freak out and do like 80 crunches. Can't do much else.

So I weigh myself. I was 138 all day. Now I'm 136.

HOW THE FUCK DID THAT HAPPEN?

I feel FAT. I even feel like I look fat. I do look fat!

Arrrrrrrrgh. I guess I shouldn't complain. My goal is to be 135 by tomorrow. I'm sure I will be now.
I just hope this fast I'm on now [started an hour ago, after that whole fiasco]
-will WORK.

If anyone wants to join me, please do. I will REALLY need the support. The weekend's almost here...

I don't care if it hurts. I will lose this fat.
A moment on the lips,
forever on the hips...
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