Faye (0leander_tea) wrote in quod_medestruit,
Faye
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Fucking fat failure

I binged so fucking badly Saturday night, no purging, and it just ruined everything. I don't even want to talk about it.

Today I had:

1 bowl of Strawberry Yogurt Cheerios + some skim milk
2 mini Famous Amos Choc. Chip cookies
1 vanilla latte Caribou Coffee granola bar
4-5 Fat Free pretzels
A Shrimp Skewer Salad from Applebee's [it was the healthiest meal on the menu at 210 calories and 2g of fat under the weight watchers section]

I don't even know how many calories I consumed before my salad for dinner.
I just know I left this weekend weighing 136, and I come home weighing 138 and I feel like a fucking disgrace.

My dorm floor reeks of food and I think it smells like nasty feet.

Well. I suppose I'll start fresh this week. Tomorrow I'm fasting. I'll start tonight at midnight. And I'll go until I need food.

I want to be at least 132 by the end of this week.
My end-of-week goal for last week was 137 though. Didn't make that. I have to try much harder this week.


I took pictures last week but I still can't find my camera cord.
I need to get to sleep.
Tomorrow will be much better.
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