Faye (0leander_tea) wrote in quod_medestruit,
Faye
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Nothing Seems to Satisfy

Something has to change.
Un-deniable dilemma.
Boredom's not a burden
Anyone should bear.

Constant over stimu-lation numbs me
and I wouldn't have
It any other way.

It's not enough.
I need more.
Nothing seems to satisfy.
I don't want it.
I just need it.
To feel, to breathe, to know I'm alive.

Finger deep within the borderline.
Show me that you love me and that we belong together.
Relax, turn around and take my hand.

I can help you change
Tired moments into pleasure.
Say the word and we'll be
Well upon our way.

Blend and balance
Pain and comfort
Deep within you
Till you will not have me any other way.

It's not enough.
I need more.
Nothing seems to satisfy.
I don't want it.
I just need it.
To feel, to breathe, to know I'm alive.

Knuckle deep inside the borderline.
This may hurt a little but it's something you'll get used to.
Relax. Slip away.

Something kinda sad about
the way that things have come to be.
Desensitized to everything.
What became of subtlety?

How can it mean anything to me
If I really don't feel anything at all?

I'll keep digging till
I feel something.

Elbow deep inside the borderline.
Show me that you love me and that we belong together.
Shoulder deep within the borderline.
Relax. Turn around and take my hand.




Hours into fast: 24.5
Hours remaining: 47.5

Drink cals consumed today:

Black Coffee- 19
Sugar-free vanilla soy iced latte- 190 (prob. less because the sugar-free wasn't calculated)

Total: 209
Cals burned: 105

Total: 104

I could do better.
I think tomorrow I want to go to the rec center and run on the treadmill for a while. It'd be nice to get the real exercise.

No classes tomorrow though =)
Tomorrow will be easy.
Wednesday I may try to get some adderold from a guy in my Japanese class. Then I'll definately make my end-of-week goal of 132. 130 would be preferred though.
I just had a cup of coffee, but I wonder how much I weigh...

Well shit... 135.5 the first time but when I din't believe that, my scale changed its mind and said 136 the next two times. 135 would be fabulous this early in the week... plus that would officialy be ten pounds lost from my high weight =)


I feel fucking fat still.
I think I just need to get my mind off of dieting for a while and just relax.
I think I'll go play the Sims for about an hour and then read in bed for a while before falling asleep.

Overall today was good. Tomorrow can still be better though. ♥
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